So it's bonfire night and I'm sat in the kitchen by myself... loner. It's not that I have no friends, I do, but they all have plans with their friends from their course and I would hate to go and not know a single soul! What a bore I am!
Things are going okay, I had a slip the other day. I almost did something really bad but I sorted myself out. Sometimes I can't help but revert to the person I used to be, the bad version of me. I don't want to be that person anymore so I'm trying to better. My friends and boyfriend help me out a lot but I still seem to find myself reverting to the internet to express myself, whether it's on here, or twitter, or instagram or even tumblr, I can't help myself. It's as if I feel uncomfortable around everyone else in my life but my laptop, which is a scary thought.
I feel as if I should be having a more interesting university experience, but in reality, now that I'm here I don't feel the need to go out to a club every night, get wasted and act a twat. I'd rather go to my neighbours place, have a few drinks and get into bed early enough to have an hour of Netflix's before sleep. It's as if I'm an old woman!
I have no idea what to do with myself these days, other than go to lectures and sit in bed watching Netflix. I'm not fit so I can't join a sport society and I don't have the self confidence required to join the gym. I wouldn't want to do that to myself! And let's be honest, no one wants to watch me get all hot and sweaty on a treadmill and potentially die of a heart attack!
Anyway, I should probably get back to Netflix.
Happy Bonfire Night people!
Jen